Grabbing the Crop

 

It was October 2021, I managed to make a crucial decision about my future, so I decided to leave my job and start my own servicing company. It wasn't easy though. My family relies on me and mostly depends of my income so I had to think about a real strategy to overcome the upcoming difficulties, not only paying the bills, housing, but to create real clients so that I could have my income flow sufficient to cover all my basic necessities for me and my family. 

I tried to pour on my mind positiveness instead of claiming about how hard life is. One of the thoughts I had present and stuck in my head was "I'd prepared for this for so long". For real, making this was something I was craving since I was in my past job and start my own company, but I never find myself encouraged to make that decision because of fear of the unknown. Certainly, a vast majority of people about things that hadn't happened yet, so it is hard to say but there is a lot of potential locked up while we are wrapped around those conformist mindsets. I roughly lived that and I was not willing to stick with that mentality. 

"A mistake repeated more than once is a decision" - Paulo Coelho. 

Even though current setbacks were unfavorable to me, I tried to keep up towards my new achievements, because I was on the boat with turbulent water, so I couldn't get out from it. I believe in the law of attraction. It is something about the things you attract are according to the amount and type of energy you create. I was trying to define myself as a successful being and point that out to every relative, friend and acquaintance. It was not easy at first glance, because I was not receiving work requests and my bills were about to due, but in the edge of my due dates somebody called me for help, and I got paid so I could pay my compromises. To make the story short, I started receiving calls from people who I didn't expect to call me for work requests, so I feel something out of my conception was happening. It is a grand blessing when doors open towards your goals, yet sometimes the struggle was real, but at this moment work done last year is starting to fruit, and this is the reason of the title of this posts, I am grabbing the crop, but I don't want to think myself I achieved everything, it is the starting point though. The crop is huge and it's impossible to collect everything in a moment. It takes time and there are setbacks indeed. 

I wanted to share this experience in my blog journal because I hadn't written for so long and one of my biggest achievements I am craving for is to become a writer, so if I don't start now, I never will. 

Thank you!

Finding Inspiration

Everyday comes with a new challenge. Silently, my mind spoke to me on a way that I never felt before. Level up, don't give up. Practice and rehearsal are crucial keys for perfection and success. So, what was the hint? Whatever the language you speak the most, poetry is a learnt skill which requires wide vocabulary knowledge as well as having something to write for. I have great admiration for the people who just need a couple of words, so they can create an ongoing story whether is true or not. Sometimes I feel astonished when I know that big books were written based on something that happened on one night. However, a good piece of writing can be obtained as a result of several years of studies of certain theme or career. J.R.R. Tolkien found inspiration to create The Lord of The Rings series by years of studying about Old English literature, especially Beowulf and combining the studies of ancient mythologies such as Greek, Celtic, Finnish and Slavic. My case can be different. I am in a process of reading as much books as possible to utilize new vocabulary as well as visualizing into different epochs. It's not easy as it seems, yet when I find myself a peaceful moment where a bunch of ideas hover around my head, so it means that I'm ready for something else. Two days ago, while I was doing my daily twitter scrolling, I came across to a twitt where the user asked something like when is the moment on a new relationship to truly say "I love you"? I though about inspiration, so I wrote this poem:

Let me say something I want to express,

Because it's going too fast so I cannot explain,

I didn't feel this way since the day we first met,

Nobody can't tell you but me, so I cannot regret.

Can I call this love or it's just delight?

Sometimes I want to ignore it but my smile can't deny,

Because my past just reminds me tears on my eyes,

So my feelings inside tell me to grant a big chance.

There's no written rule on how we have to love,

If it brings peace and joy we should let it flow,

If it's going to work, time will let know,

So if you liked these words please make me a bow

I know the end of the last sentence was a just for fun moment, but the intention of this writing verses practice was as an exersice to find the correct rhyming words so the message I want to express to be coherent. On my high school years, I was so reluctant with literature, poetry, reading. I never ended a book, yet I didn't find the interest of them. I am totally different with literature, so I'm having a hungry of reading but now it happens the opposite: I want to read, but I lack time. LOL. Being a parent of two little daughters (my princesses), so time matters. I finally understand the real value of time than never before. 

Finally, I hope all the motivation which in all of a sudden came through me, it doesn't fly away. I'd like to make use of these classic writing tools like blogger and Medium which never be old fashioned for people like us who like a good piece of reading. 

Take care.