Sunday, August 25, 2019

When will I finally find myself?

When I find solely moments with my mind clear of any distracting garbage, I have small talks with my inner self, and sometimes it comes to my mind the question "When will I finally find myself?". Yet at this age would be sort of naive because everyone may think that an adult person with an apparent realized life wouldn't be worried for some childish struggles, but I clearly see that too many people have ocean size voids which have not been filled whatsoever. Myself is included.

Year by year, I have been redefining what success means to me, as long as I feel less worried about the things that can derail my happiness. On my twenties, I thought that finalizing a university major, then getting a job lined up with that major, it could be a successful lifestyle. I lived that experience, and I don't regret about that, but I dind't receive a real life advice about what an adult life really is about.

Money is the most visible measurable variable of success, and it's all about on how people set judgements about others. We live on a system where money flows so that it's delivered for whom has more value according to this system. Not necessarily the ones who do more work are the ones who earn more. It seems unfair, but the economic system, which all individuals are stranded on, delivers on a very unproportional rate according to the market value of the individual. One friend of mine suddenly chatted me if I didn't feel sort of dissapointment of this working, paying bills and rent lifecycle. I felt startled about the question, but if we assess very well, that statement sadly contains much true on it. If some part of this lifecycle steals your peace, clearly I believe that something is not going as we expect.

This system won't change for the upcoming years, the governments will behave the same way, the economic system will be always broken and the money will always be delivered on this unfairly way. The best thing we can do is replenish ourselves with positive traits in order to help each others. So then, when I try to anwer the question I started in this post, I see crystal clear that the answer will shortly come, but when it finally do, I should at least had filled the most of the voids that had been stealing my happiness, peace and joy. But when will that happen? I remember that life has not to be a money making routine, I have a family, two little daughters, a health to worry about, too many experiences to enjoy, too many places to know, and so on.

So, I am trying to live and enjoy my present even though it's not so grateful as I expected, but I don't have to lose my direction on what I'm want to achieve.

Thank you.

Monday, July 15, 2019

How to pour fresh learning to your brain

When I look back to my 20's (I'm 36, so that's a long time gap), I miss the times that I spent weekends without having any nap time with no regrets, and I claimed my older relatives who evidently did. Now, when I spend my free weekends, so a nap break it's neccessary for recovering a little bit this weary being. There's a lot of thing that people of my age talk about, such as few sleeping hours, knee pain, kids, work stress, and so on. Regarding all this heads up, I frankly think that we have to add new learning to our brain, even if we have to sacrifice our comfort zone. No reward will fall from the sky without any work made.

Recently, I feel pretty discouraged when I spent more than 10 years working constantly for a company which offered me personal and economic growing, so I din't take importance to academically growing, which means, to get an additional major or something else. Sometimes our body and soul need a reward, yet I learned that anybody can give you that but you.

When I studied from two semesters in a row my english courses on my college, a learning hunger awaken inside me which convinced me that never it's to late to achieve your learning goals and skills. Nowadays, with 2 daughters, a home to attend, exhausive work journey, so studying can mean a burden for anyone else, but for me is an encouraging challenge.

One important thing to add fresh learning it's to feel yourself confident and let your fears step away from you. Regardless your age and exhaustive daily journey, the first thing that has to be driven it's to have small talks with yourself and say "I can do it". I can find all means possible to achieve that without excuses. On this interconnected world we live on, any information can be found, any book can be gotten, too many free learning resources are grab and go, and so many follow up tools are on our reach. Too unexcusable.

Finally, your life experience had told you that many things are not achievable for you, but let's do a swift and tell your past life that you are a story that hasn't still ended.

Thank you.

Wednesday, May 1, 2019

When looking back is not an option

Few days ago, I was reminiscing on several moments that I enjoyed the best. As a teenager on 1998 or 1999, I don't remember feeling worried about what it would happen tomorrow even though my parents were living a serious financial struggle. I never thought either leaving my parents house or having my own family so far, yet I whined too many times about not having my own rules. However, one of the best memoirs I have is having my friends available everyday at a certain hour. We didn't have cellphones to text or call between us for gathering, if one of us whistled then we knew that was the going out signal.

Nowadays, life is pretty much different than twenty years ago. We are living a time where people don't feel safe, yet we cannot confidence with any person because life stress had reached so far, so people is seriously affected by what others do instead on striving for themselves. In addition, there are so many people broken who they had grown on perverted environments which are the culprits of the disoriented world where we are living now.

On this technology age, social media is meaning for many people something like an exhaust valve where any individual can express their feeling deliberately, and they receive an instant feedback from whoever it is even if they had never exchanged any spoken word between them. Things like that makes the living environment even worse because if someone became an online sharing person, then a reaction, whether is good or bad, has been created, and it will follow you until it get suppressed by itself as a matter of time.

To add a few things up, living cost is soaring, population is exponentially growing, countries governments are corruptely broken, drinking water is scant, and so on. Sometimes I feel I want to travel back on time, but when I see that time is the only variable you cannot retrieve, I have a unique option and is "don't look back and carry on". I have a family to strive for, so when I feel like I want to give up, I remember my daughters whose innocence and plenitude of energy makes me see life with different eyes. Many people say I am still very young, but sometimes I feel that I'd lived enough haha, but I'm longing for witness things that I'm still expecting and I haven't accomplished.

So, if you feel like life is treating you as an accordion, it's better to play it loud.


Monday, December 10, 2018

Some awkward answers to random questions

Sometimes on my free and "no things to do" time, my inner self starts to asks weird questions which certainly have a logic answer, and I'm sure on an epoch of my early life I have seen the answer, but for many of them I cannot remember. When my six years old daughter starts to ask such kind of translucent questions such as "Did Santa Claus die too many years ago?", and I cannot find a convincent answer, I feel dull, and I remind myself that I should read more in order to have an answer for every questions that even a kid can ask you.

Strolling on the internet I did some questions.

Can a star die?

A/ Most stars take millions of years to die. When a star like the Sun has burned all of its hydrogen fuel, it expands to become a red giant. This may be millions of kilometres across - big enough to swallow the planets Mercury and Venus.

Reasoning, if the sun dies then we can be swallowed by that energy, but only Mercury and Venus will. There's nothing to be worry about that.

Do tea bags really reduce eye wrinkles?

Using tea bags on your eyes is a popular home remedy. Tea bags may help to improve the appearance of your eyes by reducing dark circles, puffiness, and redness. They may also help to treat irritation, styes, and pink eye. Tea bags are an affordable, natural option that you can easily try at home.

Reasoning, I feel doubtful about that because when you accumulated your body with sleepless hours that you won't recover, how a pair of remaining tea bags can help to counterfeit body nature?

Can dogs reincarnate into humans?

some people will continue to be human, and some will become animals. ... After they have been reincarnated as an animal, when they die they return to the spiritual world, and, as before, based on their behavior before they die the spiritual world will decide whether or not they are reincarnated as a person.

Reasoning, I believe that every person and every animal has a purpuse on this world, yet I certainly believe on what you harvest is what you've planted, so what if the dog after living surrounded by humans can be a better person in other life?. What I'm sure is the animals who are always watching us are cats.

Can a sword be swallowed?

Most sword swallowers do not actually 'swallow' the sword, but instead relax the throat enough to allow the blade to slide down the esophagus, although some sword swallowers do intentionally cause the blade to move down their throats by using their throat muscles in the peristalysis act of swallowing.

Reasoning, if several people drink and spit back gasoline turning it into flame, the sword swallowing has an upper difficulty level, but both can cause serious harm to the stomach if they go wrong. Please don't try this at home.

Seek and you'll find.


Saturday, December 8, 2018

Longing for more

When I thought that I've learned much enough to keep my life running straight to its end, I realize that I'm still living as if nothing has been learned still. This cranky life-module where I'm standing in right now is telling me that even though I had been accomplished many things quietly above average than other people (s.a. travel, children, university degree), I found myself on an endless trap where many people is stucked by, and it's for the boldest and clever ones the privilege to find an exit to this vicious cycle.

Life is giving me the toughest lessons on how to survive on a crises perhaps, yet I'm still remember how my father told me how he felt pretty much disappointed when stakes on his life strucked him really hard, and he told me "life paths are not as one really expects about them". I'm not good at translating songs, but that phrase comes from a song that says in spanish "los caminos de la vida, no son como los pensaba". Sometimes, I feel nostalgic, and I just want to embrace my dad for that; I pretty sure that he'll understand me although without saying any word.

However, I'm longing for more. I'm longing for things I know that will land on my life premises without asking for them. What you manifest is before you, said an anonymous wiseman. And guess what? Everything is happening right now, yet it cannot be seen still.

See y'all.

Thursday, October 25, 2018

Learning to push myself up

During this week, I've been assigned to accomplish a couple of jobs that on my eyes looked pretty complicated and almost impossible because I had never done that before, but after moving my hands through them, I accomplished them without any complain. I bet that situation happened to you before several times, and I am sure that after doing something which seemed utter complex you ask yourself "how I did?".

We are created to do the unobjectionable. I have great admiration for people who do Parkour; when I watch any of their videos I always whisper "He'll smash his head off", yet I watch how they successfully jump from one wall to another different height wall. Do you believe that you are able to accomplish things like that? I believe so.

One of the mantras I have been practicing is to shout to my inner self "If he or she did, why don't me?". Other is "Never is too late, NEVER". Try always to talk yourself positively, and never stop doing that. So, if you expected a big essay or some of those typical long reading posts, I don't use to do that, so I believe everything has to be made step by step without hesitation.

See you next time.

Friday, October 5, 2018

Today in a nutshell

We only live once is a common ancient saying which lots of people take it so seriously, so I am one of those people. Unfortunately, our daily journey swallow all the things we would like to do, and anyone should heed all that scrapy and minimalist things that stay us away from the people or activities we love most. In my humble opinion, whether if you had a great or a pounded day, we should be more thankful to everybody and with the things that happens to us, we don't know if we have been taken apart from a deadly situation. Once we accomplish what we had determined for today, regarding the type of activity we are assigned to do, we take that burden apart, and we feel excited by now.

How did I wrote that paragraph? Easy, by watching that picture, and start each sentence with the first four letters I see (YUIO). Welcome back to blogging.